Gone

It has been some time since i last blog... have been trying to keep myself busy these past few days... just not to think about it...

But i guess i shall write it down and re-cap what has happened... @ least i wont forget that maybe a few years down the road...

Went back on the 2nd night and 3rd night ( thur )... we basically did noting much except for chanting some "jing" for my grandmother... Although the atmosphere was very sad... i was quite pissed off when some of them "dont have such feelings"... I shant name who they are... but when we were praying and chanting, there will be these group of people ( us ) that seems to be more interested in how are those coming to pay respect... They will be like turning their head over and peek and smiling and signaling those not involved in the chanting to serve the guests... cool man...

Stayed round 12+ before heading home and sleep before getting ready for work...

Friday...
Went to office as usual... did some work... Was initially going back to HUB with edmund to get our passes done... but then... seems like they are having a celebration for those having birthday on October... and seems like i was the only one... another guy who was having the same monthly birthday was busy with the user... thus, they celebrated the birthday for me...

Went back to my ah ma house... as usual... everyone was there... ate mcdonalds before going in... heard tonight will be the "last" night that we be accompanying my ah ma... we started chanting... taking breaks in-between... for a total of 5 repetition... we then started to move the "paper house, cars etc" and got ready to burn them...

We bring those to the place allocated for us to burn... those big metal container... but #$%^&#^... some clever *&^%$% park his big &*&^%^& truck beside it... and worse still... we have already pour all the paper money etc into the container... what to do? Everyone LL scrape out and lay it by the dustbin area and burn... doing that is a wrong move... cause the floor board collapse and almost the whole thing crumble to the ground...

Of course... we did what we can... i mean before doing all that movement... juz because a god damm lorry was there... we tried to call the company... tried to find out where he lives... in the end... i even manage to open the back of his truck ( because he never locks it ) and found 4 trollies... anyway... we re-gathered all the paper stuff and lit up the thing... it was quite fast though... just voooooommmm........

My ah-gor assigned me and her daughter husband to "look after the fire"... we toss and turn the paper... tryin to burn everyone of them... when ah fang husband asked me why i did that... i say... we indented (folded) 10000 dollar... then later burn only 5000... the other 5000 give who... all half burnt... LOL...

Still being quite pissed... i took a few of the left overs paper money and started pasting it onto the damm lorry windscreen... using its wipers to keep it in place... i stood back and admired my work... initially also wanted to puncture his tires... screw his 4 trollies... doesnt he has any brain? The container so big beside there... some more we placed a chair at the lot where he cleverly removed it so he can park...

We continued to toss and burn the stuff... my bro bought along a wok and some cooking stuff.. placed it on the floor... poured "some" oil cause it was for my ah ma to cook... but i think he poured enough to deep fry chicken wings...

The whole burning process take some time though... of which... i don knoe la... just felt not very good... when the fire died down... i went back to remove all the paper money... but put 1 at both side of the door handle... spitting at the windscreen... and left...

Think not bad le hor... i could have become a devil... ABC... really cannot use head think one... the more i think of it... the more i am angry....

We went back... and suddenly everyone seems to be "missing"... we initially said that as tonight is our last night, everyone will stay by my ah ma side... but... well.. in the end... left me, my dad, my ah gor 2 daughter with their husband.... cool eh...

We went back and have a shower before heading down again... brought my sister laptop and did some work... but in the end... fell asleep....

*i think i go sleep now... damm shack typing ya know... think i continue tomolo... ZZZzzzz